SEX WITH MY BEST FRIEND'S FIANCÉ-Chapter 119

- HAZEL -

Am I ready for this? I guess so. My body feels as if I just had a vacation despite how short my day off was and to think all I had was a day’s rest and good sex really makes this even more bizarre. I like it. A smirk forms on my face as I look all to my lecture hall. I definitely recommend too, rating it five stars.

I push the door open and exhale before taking a step in. I haven’t had the courage to surf through my phone since yesterday and to be honest, I’m not sure I want to. Natasha or one of my friends will probably fill me in on whatever is going on and I guess there’s no avoiding fate no matter how much I try.

I hold my shoulder high and walk in. I’m guessing the school board will request my and Killian’s presence soon so for now, I’ll just live in the moment without killing myself with these thoughts in my head. I study the half full hall carefully, examining everyone inside along with what they are doing briefly. No one’s staring my way. While I’m glad for that, I can’t help but wonder if my face has already been revealed to everyone present in this hall. For all I know, every lady has a death wish for me and every male jerk probably think they have a chance. I groan and roll my eyes with disgust.

I take a seat in my usual spot. Normally, Kate would be here with me but she’s not. I miss her. I can’t wait to go home after the exams. That is also something that bugs me.

Will I stay here long enough to write the exams with all that’s going on? I swallow. I hope so. I need these grades to have a chance with another school transfer without starting over if needed. I swallow. Mom and dad will not be happy with me. I don’t even want to imagine my punishment once this whole thing blows up in my face. I puff air out my mouth. I’m trying so hard to be calm but my whole body is trembling.

Who could hate me so much to actually want to ruin my university life? I’ve literally done nothing to harm a fly here, talk less of anyone! If anything, I’m the one who’s been hurt severally by the people and things in this school. I had an injured ankle caused by a professor, had this terrible stomach ache due to Carol’s party mix, met the most unhinged roommates and now I’m getting picked on by someone I don’t even know if I ever came across. My hands make its way to my face and my singers massage my temples from the centre of my forehead backwards. I need to breathe.

I let out a strangled exhale. I can guess my eyes are close to reddening due to the wetness of my eyelids. I lean my elbows on my desk and lower my face to rest on my fingers, which support both sides of my face without coming in contact, staring at the desk before me.

Before getting to this school this morning, I told myself I would not let myself be taken by this foul play. I promised myself that I’ll be strong regardless of what comes next, I sniff, I need to keep that promise.

I sob and blink my tears away, trying to be normal. Even if I am dumbfounded in this whole thing, the only thing I can do for me is to trust Killian. He said he’ll take care of it, I need to believe that he will. I swallow. I have to.

“Hey!” A body tugs at mine from the side, forcing me to fall slightly to the other side.

I quickly wipe under my eyelids with my fingers before raising my head to face her. “Hey.” I mumble. My voice sounds crooked. I can’t let it sound that way! The person by my sides flashes me a smile.

“You good? You missed the whole lecture yesterday. I rang you like five times.” Carol says, tapping the tip of each finger nail on the desk. Oops, my bad. I haven’t checked my phone yet.

I didn’t even notice I’d get a missed call. “Needed the day off to cool my head.” I smile at Carol and unzip my bag. My hands are too shaky to hold onto something weighty so I bring a book and paper out instead of my laptop and place it on the table. “Was totally worth it.” I add.

Carol smiles at me, shrugging slightly. I have a lot of questions on my mind right now but I’m choosing to withdraw myself from asking. I don’t know if there’s a chance our identities haven’t been revealed on the blog yet but if there is, I would rather not bring it up. The walls have ears, I’m starting to understand that phrase a lot better now.

“Thanks.” I say to her. The notes I will have to copy would be tremendous though! Thank goodness most of our classes are practically over, that’s my only saving grace. My finger clenches on my pen as I hold it above a blank page of my open book. My hands are quivering. I can’t scribble anything down, not even today’s date. I drop the pen nonchalantly on my desk and rest my back backwards on the seat, trying to cool down.

My legs are starting to shake. I take a deep breath then exhale swiftly, instantly taking another deep breath without giving myself a break.

Even my respiration technique that usually helps me calm down needs work. I sink my hand into my hair and push it backwards. Small hair strands falls at both sides of my face till my hair returns back to the way it was before I lifted a finger on it in the first place. This makes me sulk.

Stubborn hair!

My brows crease. Disobedient fingers! I hiss. My eyes dart from my hands to my legs. They’re still quivering underneath the table vigorously. Fucked up feet! Everything just seems to be working against me today! Ugh! It’s infuriating!!

I stare ahead to gaze at the front of the hall. No professor had made their way to the front of the class yet. I dip my hand into my pocket and bring out my phone. This glass was supposed to start over ten minutes ago, what the fuck is keeping the professor from coming in? Surely the universe isn’t working against her like it is with me!

I huff and roll my eyes. I feel so uneasy and restless. Being in this hall is choking. The air feels so tight that it’s like I can barely breathe. A sharp gasp leaves my lips.

Even my breath is stuttering. I’m fucked. I chuckle slightly under my breath. I place my pen at the centre of my book division and close it, dipping my book in my bag.

I can’t stay here. Today will just have to be another missed school day. Besides, students miss classes all the damn time!

“Going somewhere?” Carol asks as I zip my bag.

I stand up and nod. “Yeah.” I murmur. I fear if I stay here any longer with this feeling creeping at the back of my neck, I’ll pass out of anxiety.

Her lips form a line. “I guess I’ll see you later.” She says to me and flickers her fingers for a wave.

I shut my eyes briefly and sigh. “Meet me today at that place? I could really use the company.” I blurt out. I don’t know where Killian is right now but I’m heading to his place because I don’t think I’d be magically able to stay in my dorm.

“The quiet spot of the secret location?” Carol winks.

“The secret location..” I wink back at her agitated. I’m starting to wonder if I actually need her companion. “Can you make it?”

A half grin forms on her face. “Darling, with all the mopey exam faces these lads have on their faces, gladly!” She snaps. This makes me feel a bit better.

Exams. We have exams coming up. I’m sure everyone is more worried about that than two random student and professor being intimate. “I’ll text you.” I say to her.

Carol rips out a portion of paper from the end of a page of her notebook and write something down. “In case you don’t have my number.” She says to me. I take the piece of paper from her and stare at the digits. With everything that has happened recently, I don’t even remember if I did have her contact or not.

“Thanks.” I say sweetly, my tone low. “I’ll see you later then, bye.” I dip the paper in my pocket and make my way out of the seating arrangement. A sigh of relief leaves my lips as I make my way up the center passage way while heading to the doors. I feel better already.