Kiss Me if You Can-Chapter 38Vol. 1 .2

The child, who had been gaping blankly, suddenly staggered as if his tension had been relieved. Chase’s fear disappeared for a moment at the sense of crisis that he might fall into the lake.

“Pete!”

Chase shook the fence like crazy. But it was just rippling, and there was no gap anywhere. Ugh, Pete burst into tears. If he did that, he would quickly lose his stamina. Chase hurriedly pulled himself together, feeling as if he kept seeing illusions.

That was when he found a hole that he could barely crawl into. Chase bent down without hesitation.

“… … Whew.”

The barbed wire that jutted out cut down his shoulder. He felt a sharp pain, but Chase ignored it and continued to crawl on the floor. Dust rose up and covered his nose and face, making him hold his breath. Chase clenched his teeth, his eyes getting heavy and his brows furrowed. The child continued to cry.

Only after he was completely covered in dirt and dust was he able to pass through. His face was covered in mud, and his mouth was filled with sand, making his tongue feel rough. He wanted to spit, but even that didn’t work. He gasped for breath through his dry mouth and quickly got up. There was no time to hesitate. Chase ran toward Pete.

“Pete!”

Pete burst into tears as he shouted urgently. He would soon hold the child in his arms. He would be able to save Pete. Chase’s mind was filled with only that.

At that moment, a dog growled nearby. Chase instinctively stopped running and turned his head. Not far away, a large dog was glaring at him, baring its teeth. Chase’s whole body froze.

Jason.

Only then did he realize what Pete had said. The same type of dog as the doll Pete had been carrying was facing him. This was probably the owner of the dog barking that he had been hearing all along. However, unlike the doll, this dog was a fully grown adult.

Goosebumps ran down his back. Pete was between the dog and Chase. If Chase tried to save Pete, the dog would immediately pounce on him. Maybe the target was Pete. Pete, who was smaller and weaker than Chase, was the target. As evidence, the dog was wary of Chase, but he also paid attention to Pete.

It would only take a moment. With just a little courage, he could save Pete. If only his legs would move.

He tried to somehow move his trembling legs, but it was just a thought. Chase could not approach Pete.

Just like that time.

Suddenly, he remembered the past. The man who had become bloody for him. The broad back that protected him, the smiling face, the blood-soaked body.

Joshua.

His breathing became ragged and cold sweat ran down his back. What would happen to him if he lost that child? The smiling face that had been looking at Pete with loving eyes filled his retina. I couldn’t even imagine that a man who always seemed strong would fall apart.

At that moment, Josh’s words came to mind.

〈If I die, will you cry?〉

〈Yes. I will cry a lot.〉

At that moment, Chase flew towards Pete. As the angry dog ​​rushed at him and Chase hugged the terrified Pete, a loud gunshot suddenly rang out.

Taang!

The startled dog suddenly stopped and backed away with a bang. But it didn’t end there. Another gunshot rang out, and the dog, who seemed to be flustered and was wandering around, was hit by a bullet and shattered.

The frightened dog couldn’t resist anymore and ran away in a hurry. Then silence descended.

“Chase, Pete!”

An urgent cry was heard. Chase realized belatedly that it was Josh’s voice.

“Ah.”

The tension was relieved, and his legs slipped. He almost fell into the lake, but the tall grass saved him. Chase hurriedly reached out and grabbed the thick grass, letting out a sigh of relief. Meanwhile, Josh, who had run to where they were, reached out urgently.

“Catch him, Chase!”

Chase raised his head. As always, the man who had come to save him was there.

Chase smiled faintly and pushed the child up first. Pete, who was sobbing, recognized Josh and sobbed and stretched out both arms. Josh hurriedly caught Pete and safely placed the child behind him before quickly reaching out to Chase. Chase smiled faintly and reached out his hand, and Josh immediately grabbed it and pulled it with all his might.

“… … !”

Chase, who barely managed to get up, fell to the ground. Josh also seemed to have relaxed, gasping for breath.

“Daddy, daddy.”

“Yes, Pete. Don’t worry now.”

“Jason, I lost it.”

Then he realized his hands were empty. Josh looked at him in confusion, and Chase said with a tired face.

“The doll fell into the lake, and I couldn’t get it out.”

Josh, who had been patting Pete, who was crying again and clinging to him, opened his mouth with a serious face.

“What the hell are you doing, man.”

Chase glanced at him. Josh stroked his cheek and continued speaking in a still low voice.

“You’ll get a scar.”

Chase just smiled bitterly at Josh, who was looking at his scratched and dirty face. Josh spit out a curt remark, feeling even more hurt by that sight.

“You’re a mess right now.”

“It’s okay.”

Chase opened his mouth for the first time. But that was all. Josh, speechless at the simple words, let out a sigh.

“Why did you do that?”

Josh asked with a distorted face.

“You’re afraid of dogs. Then why didn’t you run away and save Pete? … … while getting hurt like this.”

Chase looked at him. His unwavering gaze was directed at Josh.

“It’s your kid.”

Josh’s eyes widened in an instant. Chase smiled tiredly at him, who was speechless in surprise.

“… … That’s all?”

Josh’s voice trembled slightly. Chase simply smiled instead of answering. But because of that, Josh could be sure that he was speaking his mind more sincerely than ever.

At that moment, Josh couldn’t hold it in any longer and confessed.

“It’s your kid.”

“… …?”

Chase furrowed his brow faintly. As if asking what on earth he meant. Josh spoke again in a shaky voice.

“It’s your kid, Pete. … … your kid and mine.”

“… … .”

Chase still didn’t say anything. He just looked at Josh. It was clear that he didn’t understand what he had heard. Josh waited silently for him to accept reality.

After what felt like a long time, Chase’s eyes slowly moved to Pete. His face, covered in mud and grass and all sorts of things, seemed unfamiliar, as if he had never seen it before. He opened his mouth and asked after a long time.

“How old is he?”

The reason Chase said that was because he hadn’t been able to sort out all the questions that were running through his head. Josh bit his trembling lips and then released them.

“When I guarded you before, you got a rut. You probably don’t remember.”

“… … .”

“You slept with me then.”

Josh waited for Chase’s response with the feeling of a criminal awaiting sentencing. He was silent for a long time. It was as if he had stopped breathing. After a long silence that felt like half a lifetime, Chase opened his mouth.

“I.”

Josh looked up at the voice shaking wildly. Chase was looking at him with a look of shock and horror.

“I raped you?”

“No, I didn’t!”

Josh denied it immediately. Looking at Chase’s face full of disbelief, he said again.

“I slept with you because I liked it.”

It was the truth. Josh confessed again and again.

“I slept with you because I wanted to, because I liked you so much. … … You’re not at fault.”

Chase opened his eyes wide as if shocked and remained silent. Looking at him, Josh’s heart ached and his eyes stung.

“I’m sorry.”

“… … .”

“I’m sorry for not telling you, for lying.”

Chase just looked at Josh, who was apologizing in a faintly trembling voice. Josh thought he would gladly accept any criticism he might receive. Wasn't that what he had been prepared for anyway? That everything could end like this. It would just be going back to the beginning.

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When a corner of his heart began to tingle, Chase suddenly muttered.

"... ... Thank goodness."

Josh blinked in surprise. To his disbelief, Chase's eyes were filled with tears. He

He said that sincerely. Chase, who had let out a trembling sigh, opened his mouth.

“I knew you slept with someone.”

“… … .”

“There was definitely someone who sent Rut, but I couldn’t remember it at all. So I’ve been looking for it for the past few years… … .”

“You found it? Me?”

“Yeah.”

When Josh asked in surprise, Chase covered his face with both hands and let out a trembling sigh.

“Since no one showed up and I couldn’t find any traces, I thought maybe it really was a dog.”

“No!”

Josh urgently stopped him.

“You never slept with a dog, Chase.”

He could see Chase freeze in place. Josh continued, unable to hide his regret.

“Grayson lied.”

Chase slowly lowered his hand. His face was clearly shocked. Josh kissed his forehead affectionately.

“You keep refusing, so I’m just scaring you… … .”

“I’m going to kill that son of a bitch!”

Chase suddenly shouted and sat up. Pete, who had been sleeping behind him, was so tired that he burst into tears again. Josh hurriedly held the child in his arms and started to soothe him.

“Watch what you say, in front of the child.”

Chase closed his mouth at Josh’s rare sincere warning. However, his surging anger was too much to suppress. He jumped up and started pacing around in circles.

“I said I did it because I was thinking of you.”

Josh said it anyway, even though he didn’t believe it himself. Chase stopped walking and glared at him with a scary look.

“Grayson doesn’t know what emotions are. He just pretends.”

Josh, who was looking at him as he shook his shoulders in anger, opened his mouth again.

“You’ve never done anything with anyone.”

Chase, who was clutching his head, stopped again. Josh continued talking to him as he looked back in surprise.

“I always said I took it with an injection, and the reason I kept it a secret was because you kept refusing, so I was just trying to scare you.”

“… … .”

“No killing, Chase.”

Josh stopped him calmly but firmly.

“I beat you up, but if you want, I can kidnap you so you can beat me up yourself.”

“Okay.”

“Okay.”

The two made a simple deal. Naturally, Chase, who was still angry, sighed as he looked up at the sky, clenched and unclenched his fists, and kicked the ground with his feet, venting his anger for a while.

Only after he had calmed down a bit did he finally swipe his hair irritably. As Josh stood up, holding Pete, who had started to doze off again, Chase’s gaze turned to them.

The way he looked at Pete was noticeably different from before. Josh stood silently, waiting for him to sort out his emotions, as his gaze was a mixture of confusion, embarrassment, curiosity, and love.

“… … The guy who said he didn’t remember when he slept before.”

“You.”

Chase tried to say something at the quick answer, but quickly closed his mouth. Josh immediately noticed that he was about to swear again but held back.

Pete suddenly opened his eyes, perhaps sensing a strange atmosphere. Chase briefly fixed his gaze on the child, who blinked his half-closed eyelids and looked around. The silence was more overwhelming and sweet than ever. Chase barely opened his mouth and spoke.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t save Jason.”

Pete, who had been looking at him in a quiet voice, smiled broadly. Pete said to Chase, who paused and blinked.

“It’s okay.”

Chase, who had been staring blankly at his son who was closing his eyes again and falling asleep, asked.

“Weren’t you a dear friend?”

“I was.”

Josh smiled bitterly.

“I guess you like your face more now.”

“… … .”

“Aren’t you happy?”

Chase suddenly threw an annoyed look at the unexpected silence.

“Like you?”

“Me?”

When I asked why, Chase ground his teeth.

“You like me because of my face anyway.”

Josh paused. Chase spat out, as if he was suppressing his anger.

“You only like my face, so it’s the same. Isn’t it?”

Josh barely managed to hold back from saying, “Then what else is there for you but your face?” Now was not the time to joke.

“Idiot.”

“What?”

Chase got angry right away. Josh said with a bitter smile.

“That’s you too.”

“… … .”

“You have it all.”

Josh joked, emphasizing it once more.

“And think about it, if I hadn’t fallen for your face in the first place, I wouldn’t have ended it like that when you said you could hit me?”

Chase asked, stunned.

“You let it go because of my face?”

“You didn’t roundhouse kick me.”

Chase let out a frustrated exclamation at Josh’s shameless answer, but in the end, he couldn’t say anything. Now, Josh decided to stop teasing him and opened his mouth seriously.

“It might have been the pheromones at first.”

“… … .”

“It might have been your face.”

Chase asked hesitantly.

“Now?”

“Now.”

Josh smiled bashfully. For the first time, Chase could see that he was nervous. He opened his mouth and took a deep breath, and then Josh finally confessed.

“… … I love you.”

Chase’s eyes widened. Oh, Josh realized. I’ve never really said those words before.

“I love you.”

He declared again. Why didn’t I know that these words were so sweet until now?

As he thought that, Chase suddenly hugged him. Their lips met and their tongues mingled violently. His heavy breath poured into Josh’s mouth, and he could feel the pheromones filling his nose. In an instant, when his mind was dizzy, Chase pulled away. He blinked at Josh’s hazy face staring at him blankly.

He knew this face.

Chase sighed briefly.

It was the man he saw in his dream.

“It really was you.”

Chase whispered in a faintly trembling voice. He tried to kiss him again, but Chase overlooked the fact that they had a child.

“Wow… … .”

Pete, who had woken up from a deep sleep because he was caught in the middle, burst into tears again. When Chase hurriedly stepped back in embarrassment, Josh burst into laughter.

“You’ll get used to it soon, the fact that you have a child.”

Josh kissed Chase, who looked at Pete with an awkward expression. He lightly bit his lower lip and then let go, touching his ear and saying.

“This is something you left behind back then.”

Chase’s gaze was fixed on that spot. Josh continued quietly.

“It was unexpected, but I’m grateful. Thanks to you, I got Pete… … and all of that happiness you gave me.”

“… … .”

“Now I want to tell you.”

Josh finally said the words he had never said in his countless relationships.

“Marry me, Chase.”

Chase’s eyes opened wide. He covered his mouth with one hand and took a step back. As if he couldn’t believe it. Josh waited for him to accept the shock again. And after a shorter time than before, Chase nodded.

“… … Yes.”

Josh pretended not to notice that his two eyes were slightly wet. Instead, he closed his eyes and kissed him, saying,

“I’ll make you happy, Chase Miller.”

Epilogue

There was no one else in the airport VIP waiting room except for a man and two children. The man was standing with his back against the glass wall on one side, watching the planes coming down. Behind him, a boy and a girl ran around the large waiting room like crazy.

“Pete, give it to me! I said so!”

The girl ran after the fairly large boy who snatched the ribbon that decorated her hair and ran away, shouting indignantly. She barely caught up to Pete, but she was still short. The child shouted in anger when she couldn’t reach him even with her arms outstretched.

“Papa! Pete took my hair tie!”

“Pete, give it back. It’s for Cecil.”

The man said nonchalantly, still looking outside. Cecil turned around, grumbling, and held out her hand.

“Did you hear? Give it back!”

“You idiot, you’re a man, so why are you doing this to your hair? Are you a woman?”

“Give it to me, I said!”

“Cecil is a girl, a girl.”

“Give it to me!”

Cecil finally burst into tears. Only then did Chase turn his head and quickly come over and hug Cecil.

“Papa, Papa.”

“Yeah, yeah. Good.”

Chase patted Cecil on the back and looked down at Pete. The momentum from before had disappeared somewhere, and Chase smiled at Pete’s quick reaction as he patted his head.

“Pete, you shouldn’t tease Cecil.”

“But Cecil is a boy.”

Pete protested.

“Boys don’t do this. They don’t wear pink dresses.”

Chase suddenly remembered his childhood when he saw Pete with his mouth wide open.

“Papa wore it too, Pete.”

Pete paused at those words. Chase was embarrassed, but he confessed honestly, knowing that he would find out anyway.

“When I was bigger than Cecil… … I wore it when I was about your age. I even shot a commercial.”

Pete just blinked his wide-open eyes as if he was speechless. Chase was worried that he might have hurt the child. He put Cecil down from his arms and leaned down to meet Pete’s eyes.

“Are you disappointed in Papa?”

Pete couldn’t answer. Chase felt bitter when he saw his son just rolling his eyes in confusion. Pete suddenly opened his eyes wide and shook his head violently, as if he had unintentionally made a sad expression.

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“No, I’m not! Papa, I’m not disappointed. If you want to wear it, wear it. It’s okay. Cecil can wear it too! So don’t cry.”

It was a misunderstanding that he was crying, but Chase felt happy when he saw the child clinging to his neck and trying to comfort him.

"Yeah.

“More, Pete. I won’t cry.”

“Yeah.”

Pete nodded and moved away as he patted the child on the back. Chase smiled reassuringly at his still anxious face. Only then did Pete’s expression soften and he handed Cecil the ribbon he was holding back.

“Here.”

Cecil took it and held it out to Chase again.

“Tie it up nicely before Daddy comes, Papa.”

“Okay.”

Chase skillfully made the ribbon. He held her waist and showed her the mirror hanging on the wall, and only then did Cecil smile with satisfaction.

After placing the child on the floor, he asked with a smile.

“Do you like girls’ clothes, Cecil?”

“Yeah?”

Cecil raised her head and let out a short exclamation, “Oh,” and then thought for a moment.

“That’s not necessarily true.”

“But why do you always try to wear girls’ clothes?”

Chase asked with pure curiosity. Cecil answered innocently.

“Daddy likes me when I wear girls’ clothes. Maybe it’s because I look a lot like Papa. Daddy really, really likes Papa.”

“Again? Is that all?”

Chase couldn’t hide his laughter and urged him on. This time, Cecil seemed to be thinking seriously, but soon smiled brightly.

“It’s a secret.”

“What?”

Chase’s smiling face froze and he looked down at him. However, Cecil had already lost interest and ran towards Pete and started saying something. Chase, who had been staring at the back of the child, turned his head. The plane was landing again.

“Uh.”

Chase quickly checked his watch when he saw the familiar mark.

“Pete, Cecil! Daddy’s here!”

The children who had been grumbling turned their heads at the same time at the urgent shout.

“Daddy!”

“Daddy?”

Chase turned around quickly, holding the children who had run to him with a “Wow!” As soon as the guards outside opened the door, Chase ran out and ran, holding Pete on his side while Cecil rode the horse.

“Wow, wow!”

Cecil shouted above his head. Chase ran like crazy through the airport with long legs that matched his height and arrived at the scheduled gate in no time. There was no one else in sight except the security staff at the separate gate for private plane passengers.

Chase waited for the door to open with his heart pounding. When the moment finally came, his heart almost stopped.

“Daddy… …!”

“Daddy!”

The child on the horse and the child hanging on his side both cried out, struggling at the same time. But Chase could not move and just watched him.

The man who had not seen their faces in two months walked out, rubbing his neck as if he was tired, but when he found them, his expression brightened up.

“My treasures!”

He shouted happily, threw down his luggage, and ran over, hugging all three of them, including Chase.

“Did you wait long? Hey, Cecil is still pretty. Pete, you look even bigger.”

Josh, who mentioned the two in turn, kissed Chase instead. When he pulled away and smiled, words poured out.

“Daddy, daddy. Pete took my ribbon earlier.”

“Daddy! Papa, no, Cecil!”

“Joshua, you know. What happened to me?”

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“Yeah, yeah. Okay. Okay.”

Josh hurriedly directed the traffic as the three men opened their mouths to talk to each other, causing a commotion.

“Let’s go talk. Okay? I’ll listen to everything.”

“Daddy, how long are we going to stay this time?”

Cecil asked anxiously. Everyone became quiet at once, and focused their gazes on Josh. Josh smiled and answered.

“I plan on taking a break for the next three months. This job was too hard.”

The other three didn’t say anything as they watched him rub their shoulders as if he was trying to show off. But Josh could already tell just by his expression. He smiled affectionately and opened his mouth.

“Let’s go back to our house.”

“Yeah!”

“Wow!”

Pete and Cecil shouted at the same time, and Chase smiled brightly. Their lips overlapped for a little longer than before. Chase lifted his head after the kiss and whispered with a faint blush on his face.

“I missed you.”

Josh smiled back and kissed him. After their lips parted, he said.

“Next time, let me talk first.”

Chase just smiled. The two walked along, listening to the children's chattering. Pete began to chatter excitedly.

"Listen, Daddy. The reason Cecil wears women's clothes is... ... ."