Kiss Me if You Can-Chapter 37Vol. 1

She threw the gun away in surprise. It bounced back after hitting the floor, and then fell in front of Chase.

Beneath Becky, Henry lay panting. Red blood flowed out between his fingers clutching his stomach.

“Fuck, damn it… … . What the… … .”

Henry swore, panting. Becky became even more thoughtful and just sat down on the spot.

“I-I’m sorry. I was just trying to threaten you… … What, what do I do?”

“Fuck! Call an ambulance, you… …! Are you really going to kill me?”

Henry screamed. But that was his own thought, and in reality, his voice was just a groan of pain mixed in with his throat.

“Huh… … .”

Becky started to cry and then turned her arrows towards Chase.

“This is all your fault!”

Chase frowned at the sudden arrow.

“My fault?”

“Yeah!”

Becky glared at him again with tearful eyes.

“If you hadn’t ignored me from the beginning, this wouldn’t have happened! Do you know how much I suffered after you pushed me away that day? You looked at me like that, and said those things to me. Why did you do that? What was the problem?”

Her voice was filled with tears as if the memories were coming back to her again.

“How much I loved you… … . I waited the whole time during the shoot, believing you would apologize to me! But what the hell? I even prepared water for you, but you threw it away because it smelled like an omega! And then you smiled at me because you forgot. No one noticed, but I know you smiled at me!”

Becky then whispered with an excited face.

“Of course, you are Dr. Flame and I am your flower. I am the bride who burns in your eternal flame… … !”

Chase didn’t respond. Her face distorted at his response, and her eyes suddenly opened wide.

“But look, what’s your attitude right now? This is all your fault! If you had apologized to me earlier, if you hadn’t kept shaking me around like that, this wouldn’t have happened! It’s all your fault, if it weren’t for you, this guy wouldn’t have been shot!”

“Fuck, you were the one who shot me, so why… … .”

Henry groaned in pain, but was dumbfounded. But neither Chase nor Becky listened to him. Chase, who had been leaning against the panel and not saying anything until then, glanced down. There was the gun that Becky had dropped.

Becky sobbed as she watched him bend down and pick it up. Chase, who had been turning the small pistol that still had a faint smell of gunpowder, opened his mouth casually.

“Really? Then I should die?”

Suddenly, he pointed the gun at his own head. Becky opened her eyes wide in surprise, and Chase continued speaking nonchalantly.

“It’s simple. I just have to blow this up, right?”

“Chase, I really meant that.”

“What are you doing?”

Chase and Becky turned to the entrance at the same time at the sudden voice. Josh was standing there, panting, his face pale, beyond the wide open trailer door.

“What the hell… … .”

His eyes moved from Henry and the woman on the floor to Chase, and finally to the gun Chase was holding.

“What are you doing?”

He looked shocked and dazed. Becky looked back and forth between Chase and Josh, as if she was terrified. Josh couldn’t understand what was going on. Why was Henry shot? Was that woman the one who started it? And why was Chase pointing a gun at his head?

He didn’t know anything. The only thing he knew for sure was that he had to stop him.

“Calm down, Chase. “I don’t know what’s going on, but let’s talk it out.”

Josh said to Chase, taking a step closer. It felt like Chase was going to pull the trigger at any moment. A chill ran down his spine and cold sweat ran down his temples. Becky just watched them trembling.

Josh slowly approached Chase, one step at a time. In the tense silence, the only thing that seemed to be loudly ringing in his ears was his own breathing.

Chase was still looking at him with a blank expression. But his hand holding the gun didn’t waver at all. Josh opened his mouth without taking his eyes off his hand holding the gun.

“It’s okay, Chase. Put that gun down first. Then we can talk. … … Do you like bubble baths? I’ll make you a lot of detergent. Yeah, a massage would be nice, too. Is there anything you want to eat? Tell me, donuts or cookies, I’ll make you anything… … .”

Josh was desperate. He had to convince him somehow. Now, it was just a few more steps. Josh hurriedly checked the distance between himself and Chase.

We’re almost there, Chase. Just wait a little longer.

He reached out his hand, desperately wishing, but all he got in return was Chase’s cold smile.

“It’s too late.”

And he pulled the trigger. Becky screamed, and a loud gunshot echoed through the trailer.

“… … !”

The acrid smell of gunpowder tickled his nose. Chase, who had closed his eyes for a moment, slowly opened them. The world had not changed at all. Becky was still crying, and Henry was still lying there bleeding.

Only Josh, who was staring at him with a pale face and gasping for breath, was different from before. He was standing so close.

“… … Damn it!”

Josh cursed and threw the gun he had taken away. It was the gun Chase had just tried to shoot himself in the head with.

“You bastard, you… …!”

Josh grabbed Chase by the collar as if he was angry. Chase was dragged away helplessly. His gaze, gritting his teeth, was so ferocious that it seemed like he would hit Chase to death at any moment.

Even if he died like that, it wouldn’t be so bad.

It was when Chase absentmindedly thought about it. Josh, who had raised his fist, stopped. He bit his lip and seemed to be trembling, and then he brought his hand up. He thought he would get hit, but it touched Chase’s temple so affectionately.

Only after the gentle touch did Chase realize that the bullet had passed right past there.

“Why.”

Josh opened his mouth.

“Why on earth are you doing this?”

He asked with a sigh.

“Why do you keep trying to kill me?”

Josh’s eyes were wet with hurt feelings. Chase blinked in surprise. For a while, the two of them didn’t say anything. They just listened to each other’s breathing in silence.

Suddenly, they heard urgent footsteps outside, and then Isaac ran in.

“What’s going on? Mr. Miller, are you okay… … .”

He stopped in surprise at the sight inside the trailer as he shouted. Seth, who had been patrolling with him, also appeared behind him and opened his eyes wide in surprise.

“What is this?”

Soon after, he stopped when he saw Becky. She was a woman he had encountered while patrolling. He had often seen her, so he had not paid much attention to her, but what was going on?

However, he had no time to be confused.

“Henry! Oh my god, what the hell is this!”

Isaac shouted and ran towards Henry. Henry, who seemed to be half-conscious, opened his mouth. Isaac looked down at him in bewilderment as if he was whispering something.

“What’s wrong? You think you’re going to die?”

Isaac blinked at Seth’s question, then sighed in shock before opening his mouth.

“Call an ambulance.”

“The police too.”

Isaac and Seth looked back at Josh at the same time at his voice. Josh, who had calmed down, wrapped the gun he had thrown on the floor in a handkerchief and handed it over to Seth.

“Tell the police to investigate the details… … . Tell C that he’ll be interviewed as a witness when he stabilizes a bit.”

Seth glanced at him and said.

“Is C okay?”

“It was just a scratch. I’ll tell the medical team to treat him.”

Isaac followed Josh’s answer.

“Before 911 comes, it would be better to go to the infirmary and get emergency treatment. Henry, can you hold on?”

“It was a scratch, you idiot.”

“Yeah, thank goodness.”

Isaac answered dryly and quickly put his arm under his shoulder and helped him up. Henry limped out, supported by Isaac, and Seth led Becky out of the trailer. She seemed completely out of her mind, and instead of crying anymore, she just trudged along as she was told.

Josh immediately called Mark and Laura. After explaining the situation, getting instructions on what to do next, and contacting the on-site doctor, Josh hung up.

He let out a weary sigh and turned his head, and Chase nodded.

He was sitting on the floor, looking down. Josh, who had been watching him for a while, walked over to him.

He must have heard the footsteps, but he didn’t respond. Finally, Josh walked right up to him and stopped, staring blankly down at him.

“Chase.”

Josh, kneeling on one knee and bending down in front of him, spoke.

“Why did you do that?”

“… … .”

“Why did you try to die again?”

Josh asked Chase again, who was silent. He could have waited as long as he could until he heard the answer. It didn’t take as long as he thought, and Chase spoke.

“If I die, will you cry?”

Josh answered in a low voice.

“Yes.”

He continued in a whisper.

“You’ll cry a lot.”

“… … .”

Chase was silent again. Suddenly, Josh felt strange. He glanced down to check his face and stopped. Chase was crying.

“… … Chase.”

Josh took out a handkerchief and tried to wipe his face, but stopped when he saw his empty pocket. He looked back in embarrassment and then looked back at Chase, sighing deeply without realizing it.

Chase didn’t sob or whimper. He just let out a deep sigh as his tears flowed down his cheeks. His deep purple eyes were clouded by the tears that filled them, then cleared up.

The tears that flowed down his cheeks gathered on his chin and hesitated for a moment before falling to the floor. New tears fell on top of the ones that had already fallen. Josh couldn’t speak because his heart was so full of emotion as he watched Chase’s face, which was just shedding tears without even making a sound.

“Chase.”

When he barely called him again, Chase slowly raised his head. He thought their eyes finally met, but Chase’s eyes were soon clouded by the tears that welled up again.

Haa, Chase took his first shaky breath. He tilted his head and kissed Josh’s lips. Feeling the salty taste in his mouth, Josh opened his closed eyes and saw Chase’s face right in front of him.

“I love you.”

Chase let out a word and then bit his lower lip. Josh just watched him gasp for breath and suppress his sobs. Haa, Chase let out another breath and opened his mouth.

“Don’t go to that woman.”

“… … that woman.”

Josh barely asked. When he stared at Chase absentmindedly, he barely managed to control his shaky breath and made a sound.

“I heard, by chance. That you… … have a child and are waiting for the child’s mother.”

Josh was taken aback for a moment. Chase, who misunderstood her wavering gaze, opened his mouth.

“You said you weren’t interested in men, so that woman must be an alpha, right? You must have given birth to her… … . I knew that the surgical scar on her stomach was a sign of a cesarean section.”

Josh couldn’t open his mouth as the words poured out. Chase shed tears again as he looked at Josh.

“Choose me.”

“… … .”

“Choose me, not that woman.”

Chase pleaded between sobs.

“Please… … I’ll do anything, I’ll do whatever you want.”

He couldn’t hold back his emotions and burst into tears. Josh couldn’t hold back any longer as the rough sobs poured out like wails. He barely managed to move his lips to make a sound.

“That’s not what I’m saying. What would you do if I became a beggar because I was a bad guy?”

Josh joked with a faintly trembling voice. But Chase was serious.

“I don’t care.”

“I don’t want to be a pillar.”

Chase’s face turned blue as if he was shocked. Josh kissed him to reassure him. Josh opened his mouth, holding back the pain in his chest and the tip of his nose.

“Is that why you reduced your pheromones?”

“… … .”

“Because I can’t tell if I really like you?”

Chase didn’t answer this time either. However, his cloudy eyes looking at him were filled with anxiety. Feeling guilty, Josh ended up hugging him.

How much must he have agonized?

There was no doubt about Chase’s feelings. Josh barely smelled of pheromones. But Josh’s case was different. Josh felt heartbroken when he saw Chase, who must have constantly suspected and suffered that he was just being swept away by his pheromones.

“I didn’t sleep with you because of your pheromones.”

“Then?”

Josh thought for a moment and answered.

“I slept because I liked your face.”

“… … .”

Josh emphasized once more, looking at Chase who was speechless.

“It’s your face, not your pheromones.”

Josh smiled, adding inwardly that it wasn’t just your face now. There was no reason to delay any longer. Let’s end Chase’s suffering.

“I’m sorry for making it hard for you.”

Josh briefly kissed his lips and opened his mouth.

“I’ll introduce you to my child.”

Chase’s face hardened. Josh said affectionately, looking at his eyes shaking with anxiety.

“Don’t worry, she’ll like you. Because… … .”

Because I love you.

The words stopped on the tip of his tongue. Chase looked at Josh as if waiting for his next words, but Josh couldn’t continue.

Why can’t I say that I love you now when I’ve been saying it so casually?

“Because… … .”

When he trailed off again, luckily his cell phone rang. Josh quickly got up and answered the phone.

“Yes, Mark. Oh… … is that right? Yes, things are roughly sorted out here. I’ll be waiting. Yes.”

After hanging up the phone, he spoke to Chase, who was still sitting on the floor and looking up at him.

“The doctor will be here. Let’s go to bed for now.”

Josh helped Chase to the bed, soaking a towel in water and wiping his face, avoiding the wound. Chase frowned every time he wiped away the dried blood.

“Does it hurt?”

“… … It’s okay.”

Even as he said that, he flinched as soon as the towel touched the wound. Josh couldn’t help but kiss his lips because he loved that sight so much.

“… … Why do you keep kissing me?”

Only after Chase asked did Josh realize he had already kissed him more than five times. He had only one answer to give.

“Because you’re pretty.”

“… … ha.”

Chase let out a short sigh, as if he was dumbfounded. As Josh laughed, a noise was heard outside, and the doctor and Laura rushed into the trailer.

While he was working on the treatment, Josh took out a cigarette and put it in his mouth. His hands were shaking slightly, and it took a little more effort to light it.

Phew.

Only after he exhaled the smoke could he finally remember what he had said.

I have to confess everything.

He thought as he took a deep breath.

Will Chase still tell me that he loves me after he knows everything?