Kiss Me if You Can-Chapter 13Vol. 2

No way.

Unable to bear the ominous thought, Josh shouted.

“Chase!”

Josh’s voice faintly echoed in the empty room. Josh blinked for a moment, bewildered by the indescribable emptiness. His anxiety grew, and he finally took his arm off his nose and mouth and shouted.

“Chase, where are you? Answer me!”

At that moment, a faint voice was heard from behind him. Josh instinctively turned his body and looked toward the connected bathroom. He walked toward it without hesitation.

Haa, haa. Haa, haa.

Before he knew it, his breathing became rapid and his vision became blurry. If he couldn’t find him in the bathroom, he might not be able to hold out any longer. Josh forced himself to think about what he would do in that case.

What if he’s not here either.

Click.

When he opened the bathroom door and stepped inside, Josh felt cold sweat running down his back. For a moment, he realized that he had been unconscious with his eyes open.

Like this, thick, thick, heavy, painful.

Pheromones.

His mind was at its limit, recalling each word individually. The bathroom, which was as large as a bedroom, was filled with fragrance. Pheromones several times more concentrated than what he had ever smelled before rushed at him all at once.

And then, at the end of his dazed gaze, he saw him.

“… … Chase.”

Josh muttered softly, as if he was muttering. With each step, his legs felt heavy as if a giant weight had been added to his ankles. Between the desire to just sit down and rub his bottom and the longing to see Chase’s face, he walked like a machine.

Chase was lying sprawled on the bathroom floor. He couldn’t tell if he had lost consciousness while trying to wash himself or if he had been trying to do something else. All he knew was that his naked body was much thinner than before, that his blonde hair, which had grown out haphazardly since the filming was over, covered his gaunt face in a mess, and that he wondered if he was cold as he watched him lying on the cold floor.

“Chase.”

Josh barely made it to him and put a hand on his shoulder. He could feel the protruding bone clearly under his palm. His brain, which had been dazed by pheromones, woke up a little. Josh put strength into his hand and shook his shoulder hard.

“Chase. Come on, Chase!”

“Rutt’s here.”

Chase slowly lifted his eyelids as he recalled Grayson’s words. The eyes beneath his voluminous blonde hair were golden. Josh had clearly seen those eyes, dazzlingly sparkling. When he was frozen for a moment, Chase opened his mouth.

“Josh.”

His hoarse voice barely made a sound. Chase slowly got up, his dry lips twitching.

“Josh.”

Chase called his name again and faced Josh, who was kneeling in front of him. His dry fingers slowly raised and touched Josh’s cheek. The faint trembling stopped in midair as he felt the warm body temperature, and a faint smile appeared on Chase’s face. Finally, he whispered.

“You came to kill me.”

Josh opened his eyes wide. Chase’s smiling face entered his bewildered gaze. He smiled with a happy face he had never seen before and hugged Josh.

〈Please, kill me.〉

Chase buried his face in Josh’s shoulder, muttering his longing wish again. Haa, he let out a sigh of relief. This is really the end, he whispered.

Is this real? Or is he just rambling on pheromones?

Josh grabbed his arm, barely trying to think in his dazed mind.

“Chase.”

It took a deathly patience to suppress the urge to knock Chase down and climb on top of him right away. Josh thought he might actually do it.

“Chase, get up.”

He gritted his teeth and spat it out.

“Let’s go, let’s go out and talk first.”

He tried to force Chase up, but he didn’t have enough strength. When he was sane, it might be okay, but now he was at his limit just maintaining his reasoning, and it was impossible to get Chase up and walk, who was bigger than him. In the end, Josh dragged his arm and tried to force him up, but ended up rolling on the bathroom floor.

“Oh no!”

Josh barely managed to suppress his swear words as he examined Chase’s body, but he stopped. Old and new wounds were tangled together with bruises all over his body. Wasn’t he taking medication? What the hell was this?

“Chase.”

He was about to call his name again and ask what was going on when Chase blinked. His eyes, which had been blank and unfocused until then, briefly turned purple and then gold. But Josh could tell that he had regained some consciousness. Josh immediately knelt down in front of him and lightly tapped his cheek.

“Chase, are you awake? Chase.”

“… … Joshua?”

Chase blinked his wide-open eyes and called his name. This time, his dazed gaze was for a different reason. He opened his mouth again, but it took him a few more seconds to make a sound.

“Joshua, really?”

“Yes, it’s me.”

Josh forced a smile to suppress his emotions.

“What the hell is this, don’t you know I fell in love with your pretty face?”

Of course he was joking. Despite his disheveled, unruly hair and gaunt cheeks, Chase was more than enough to take Josh’s breath away since the last time he saw him. Perhaps it was because his unfocused eyes, his long, fluttering eyelashes, and his thin lips made him look even more miserable. He looked like an opera singer singing in the rain in front of an empty auditorium. When Josh bit his lip in pity, Chase paused again and spoke. His voice was even more shaky than before.

“So you’re going to leave me now?”

“You’re stupid, of course you’re joking.”

Josh deliberately scolded him and hugged his shoulders. Josh paused as his skinny body entered his arms. What on earth had happened?

“What the hell is going on? Chase, who did this?”

Josh asked as calmly as he could. He was determined not to let it go as long as he found the culprit who had done this to Chase’s body. Chase blankly stared at Josh’s face, which had been trying to put on a gentle expression, and then opened his mouth.

“I.”

“What?”

“I did it.”

Josh was momentarily speechless in shock. The murderous intent that had risen to the top of his head instantly receded.

“Why, why?”

“… … .”

“Why did you do this? Huh? Chase.”

He couldn’t help but keep asking, even though he was careful not to press him. Josh really wanted to know. Why did he hurt himself and make himself so sick?

“Because.”

Chase muttered as if he was muttering.

“I can’t take medicine, but you don’t.”

“… … .”

“If I lose my mind, I’ll go crazy or… … I might rape someone, and I can’t take the pills anymore.”

“So.”

Josh swallowed and asked again.

“So you did this to yourself? Your body?”

“… … .”

“To keep yourself from losing your mind?”

Chase paused and nodded. Josh was once again at a loss for words. He had endured everything on his own and finally made it this far. What if Josh hadn’t come here?

Chase’s face, reaching out to him in his hallucination, came back to life.

“You’re here to kill me.”

When had his face ever looked so happy?

Josh recalled the moment he had proposed to Chase in a hazy memory. Then he couldn’t bear it anymore.

“Chase, do you remember what I said?”

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Josh barely managed to get the words out, panting. Still holding him, Josh continued.

“You said you couldn’t die as long as I protected you, right?”

“… … .”

“There’s no way I’d come to kill you. Chase, right?”

Chase still didn’t say anything. Under the pressure of pheromones and his silence, Josh felt like he was going to die. Leaning on Josh and remaining silent, Chase finally confessed.

“I don’t want to go crazy.”

He pleaded with sobs.

“Oh, please… … . Joshua, I don’t want to go crazy.

No.”

Chase had been suffering from that fear ever since he manifested. Josh could see it. Chase’s fear, dread, self-loathing, and all those emotions were like sweet pheromones, and they were all thick and heavy.

Crazy, sweet.

Josh couldn’t hold back the sweetness and swore roughly.

“… … Damn, why didn’t you call me earlier?”

If he had.

Josh thought for a moment. He had no other choice. But he could have stayed by Chase’s side. Cheered him up, encouraged him, kissed him.

I wish I could have done that.

He left Chase’s side again when he needed him the most. For the first time, Josh felt self-loathing along with a sense of guilt.

If I hadn’t manifested as an Omega, I could have continued to stay by Chase’s side.

After a moment of regret, Josh shook his head. No, that’s not true.

“Chase.”

Josh called his name.

“Chase, look at my face.”

He forcibly pulled Chase away from him. He held his shoulder and distanced himself, and looked straight at his face. Chase’s wet gaze turned to him. It was a beautiful face that always took Josh’s soul away. Josh thought that this must have been how a sailor felt when listening to the song of a siren.

“Chase.”

Josh opened his mouth with great effort to keep himself from losing his senses.

“If you weren’t an alpha, we wouldn’t have slept together then.”

Josh continued slowly, emphasizing each word.

“If you weren’t an alpha and unconscious, we wouldn’t have slept, Pete wouldn’t have existed, and we wouldn’t have met again and fallen in love like this.”

“… … .”

“And if I wasn’t an omega, I wouldn’t have been swept away by your pheromones, and I would have just been busy avoiding you. You wouldn’t have even marked me.”

Josh paused and continued.

“Then we would have just passed each other by and lived forever without knowing each other. All the countless kisses I’ve had and the words I’ve said to you that I love you would have all gone away. Would that have been nice?”

“… … .”

“All of this was possible because you were an alpha and I was an omega.”

Josh, who had said that, looked straight into Chase’s eyes and declared.

“I don’t regret a single thing.”

“… … .”

Chase still didn’t say anything. Josh realized that it was time to choose. The choice they had left was extremely simple. Do it or not. Josh quietly stroked Chase’s ear. The smooth ear without a single dot was infinitely soft.

What would become of us?

Josh wondered if he had ever been this scared. When he had decided to have Pete, when he had gone into the operating room alone, when Chase had stood in front of the dog to save Pete.

When he had vomited blood and collapsed in front of me.

Every moment was with Chase. Josh couldn’t imagine life without him anymore. So Josh hugged Chase tightly.

“Chase.”

Josh took a deep breath and opened his mouth. He could hear Chase’s heavy breathing in Josh’s ear. He continued, believing Chase could hear him.

“I’m going to put a mark on your ear.”

He could feel Chase’s movements against his body. Josh gasped, closing his eyes.

“Steward said that if something went wrong, either you or me would go crazy.”

He felt a faint tremble. You didn’t even have to check to see how much fear Chase had. Josh added with a sigh.

“But I want to carve a mark on you.”

“… … .”

“I’d rather you live with me than die and disappear.”

Josh closed his eyes after saying that. He slowly lifted his eyelids and whispered.

“I love you, Chase.”

Chase’s trembling stopped. Josh continued his confession, holding his frozen body.

“No one has ever loved me as much as you. It doesn’t matter if you’re an Alpha or a Beta.”

Josh gave his final monologue. It might be his last confession while he’s still sane.

“I love you.”

Chase didn’t respond until then. He just froze and buried his face in Josh’s shoulder. Josh didn’t know how much fear and terror he had. He just waited for him to choose. After a long time, Chase asked.

“… … Even when I get old, will you still be by my side?”

Chase raised his head. His face was pale from his physical strength reaching its limit. Josh opened his mouth to Chase, who was looking at him with his shoulders shaking with rapid breathing.

“When you get old.”

The words Josh had once said to him that no one would like him when he got older and his appearance changed must have lingered in Chase’s heart. Josh, who met his shaking eyes, smiled briefly as if he had imagined something.

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“You’ll be a very pretty grandfather.”

Then he kissed Chase on the lips and whispered while their lips were pressed together.

“Even then, I’ll be itching to kiss you.”

Chase blinked. The tears that had quickly filled his eyes flowed down. Soon, he hugged Josh’s body.

Haa, haa. Haa, haa.

The rough breath hitting his ear was now so loud that he couldn’t even tell whose it was. Suddenly, Steward’s words came to mind.

“If your pheromones don’t match, one of you might go crazy.”

It doesn’t matter.

Josh truly thought that.

It doesn’t matter at all.

He wrapped his hands around Chase’s neck and pulled him to him. Their heads turned and their rapid breathing mingled. Chase didn’t stop him or push him away. Instead, he hugged his waist and pulled him in tightly. As if telling him to hurry up. Josh tilted his head and bit Chase’s ear with his lips.

“I won’t smell another omega until I die.”

Could there be another desire and excitement this strong? Josh whispered, feeling a dizzying pleasure that made his mind dizzy.

“Until death separates us.”

And then, he bit Chase’s ear hard.