In This Life, I Will Extremely Pamper My Short-Lived Husband-Chapter 222 Can’t Lose You Again

"You were so good to me, how could I not be moved?"

"Our relationship was getting better and better, and it eventually felt like we were truly a family."

"But one day, you had an accident and left me with Tuantuan and Sui Sui."

Xu Jinzhi’s voice choked, and her body shook uncontrollably, unable to accept the fact that Xie Yanchuan had left her.

"I’m sorry," Xie Yanchuan said hoarsely.

He felt very sorry for abandoning them, but...

Sometimes, that’s just how unpredictable life can be.

"Back then, I had just gotten pregnant with Sui Sui. I wanted to wait for you to come back, to tell you the good news when you returned, but you never came back, you never returned to my side."

"Xie Yanchuan, you left me, and never returned to my side!"

In her past life, Xu Jinzhi had been numbing herself, telling herself that she and Xie Yanchuan were just in a marriage of convenience and that there were no real feelings between them.

So when Xie Yanchuan died, he was just gone, and she had to continue on with her life, caring for many people and many things.

But now, knowing that Xie Yanchuan died because of her, those feelings of guilt kept surging, and Xu Jinzhi realized that she had blamed Xie Yanchuan in her previous life.

She blamed him for promising to take care of her, to love her, and then leaving her all alone!

Leaving her to live so many lonely years by herself!

But now, there was only guilt left.

Xie Yanchuan didn’t know what else to say, he knelt down, tilting his head up slightly, and rested his forehead against Xu Jinzhi’s.

At this moment, his eyes were deeply red, and he could only hold Xu Jinzhi, repeatedly apologizing over and over.

Xu Jinzhi couldn’t control her emotions; she hugged Xie Yanchuan, kissing him uncontrollably.

Xie Yanchuan kissed her back, his movements somewhat rough, as if trying to merge Xu Jinzhi into his body.

After a long time, Xu Jinzhi lay limp in Xie Yanchuan’s arms, physically exhausted. Now pregnant with Sui Sui, Xie Yanchuan naturally wouldn’t do anything to her.

The two just held each other, providing mutual comfort.

After a good while, Xu Jinzhi’s emotions seemed to stabilize somewhat, and she continued, "Because you left during my pregnancy with Sui Sui in my past life, every time I’m pregnant with Sui Sui now, I keep having nightmares."

"Fearing that you will leave me like you did in my past life."

"Don’t be afraid, it’s all in the past now," Xie Yanchuan said.

"I am afraid," Xu Jinzhi whispered softly, "I’ve already lost you once; I can’t lose you again."

"It’s all in the past," Xie Yanchuan kept saying while gently rubbing the top of Xu Jinzhi’s hair with his chin.

"Yes, it’s all in the past, I shouldn’t keep dwelling on those past events," Xu Jinzhi said, trying hard to force a smile, yet the smile was incredibly strained.

Xie Yanchuan held Xu Jinzhi and took her back to bed, then went to the bathroom to retrieve a clean towel to wipe her face.

Afterward, Xie Yanchuan quickly took a shower in the bathroom, and when he lay down in bed, Xu Jinzhi was still not asleep.

Xie Yanchuan held Xu Jinzhi in his arms, and seeing that she couldn’t fall asleep for a long time, he then asked, "What about later? Did you manage alright?"

Xu Jinzhi hesitated for a while, as if she were considering what to say. After organizing her thoughts, she whispered to Xie Yanchuan.

The two were exchanging words back and forth.

Yanchuan learned about many things that happened later, and also understood some things he had never been able to figure out in his life.

For example, he could never understand why Xu Jinzhi had suddenly wanted an arranged marriage with him, and not only that, why she seemed to like him so much.

Or the time they went out to play and visited a strange village; Xu Jinzhi wanted to find someone but could not.

It was said that the village had been where Xu Jinzhi had spent her later years in a previous life, and she believed that her rebirth might have something to do with this person.

There were also some less obvious small details, which he had not understood before but now did.

Until the late hours of the night, Xu Jinzhi fell deeply asleep in Yanchuan’s embrace.

However, Yanchuan found himself utterly sleepless; he held Xu Jinzhi, and though he knew she was already asleep, his hand uncontrollably kept patting her back gently.

In the darkness, Yanchuan couldn’t really see Xu Jinzhi’s features, but her image was imprinted in his mind, and he could picture exactly how she looked at that moment.

After a while, Yanchuan softly said, "I’m sorry."

~

The next day,

Xu Jinzhi woke up groggily, her mind still fuzzy, with a sense of disorientation about time.

But while she was in her daze, Yanchuan leaned over and kissed her forehead, "Awake?"

Opening her eyes, Xu Jinzhi saw Yanchuan right beside her, looking at her, still somewhat stunned, but she quickly returned to her senses.

Perhaps due to their candid conversation last night, Xu Jinzhi now looked at Yanchuan with more openly shown emotions, and blinked her eyes as she reached out her hand towards him.

Yanchuan, very cooperatively, came closer and kissed the corner of her lips.

Xu Jinzhi did not refuse and unconsciously responded to Yanchuan, and the two shared an intimate kiss early in the morning.

It took a while before they stopped, and Xu Jinzhi felt somewhat embarrassed, yet she pretended to be calm, making sure Yanchuan didn’t notice anything amiss.

Yanchuan, on the other hand, wasn’t embarrassed at all; he got out of bed, took Xu Jinzhi in his arms, and they both went to the bathroom to wash up.

After washing up and changing clothes, the couple went downstairs to have breakfast.

Today, Xu Jinzhi was in much better spirits, Yanchuan knew it wasn’t because she had rested well, but because she had released the burdens weighing on her heart.

Seeing Xu Jinzhi’s current state, Yanchuan was naturally happy.

Today was the last day of the Spring Festival. While Yanchuan could rest a few more days, Xu Jinzhi had to go to work tomorrow.

So after breakfast, they discussed and decided to take Tuantuan out for some fun.

They went to an indoor inflatable castle, where before she was pregnant, Xu Jinzhi would go inside with Yanchuan to play with Tuantuan.

But after getting pregnant, Xu Jinzhi did not join them inside anymore. It was just Yanchuan and Tuantuan playing.

Today was no different. Xu Jinzhi sat on a chair outside the inflatable castle, keeping an eye on Yanchuan and Tuantuan inside.

Meanwhile, Yanchuan and Tuantuan, in between their play, made sure to occasionally glance towards Xu Jinzhi to confirm she was there before continuing their fun.