I Really Didn't Mean To Be The Saviour Of The World-Chapter 973 - 604: Sacrifice, Self-blame, and Feedback_1
Chapter 973 -604: Sacrifice, Self-blame, and Feedback_1
Tiffany Bell refused the promotion order given to her by Quentin Cooper on behalf of the Fleet Command.
At that time, she had said this.
“Since 2685, when I first became a warrior in the Voyager Battle, until now in 2713, I have fought on the battlefield for twenty-eight years, participated in seven major battles, and carried out one thousand three hundred sixty-two special missions. I am still alive, thanks to my own efforts to survive, but the most important reason for my survival is the countless comrades who have repeatedly sacrificed themselves to protect me.”
“My rank has moved up step by step, from a junior officer to a Major General, but my comrades have always been changing, and very few people have been able to fight alongside me until now. I often have an illusion, thinking that the glimmers on my military badge are stained by the blood of my comrades. The more comrades I lose, the brighter the military badge becomes.”
“Others always praise me, saying that I am invincible and can conquer everything, and the comrades in the Witton Galaxy even gave me the nickname of the Pioneer Goddess. I’m unworthy of it. But in the Witton Galaxy, I am an example to everyone, so I have to accept these honors and positions, whether I am at ease in my heart or not.”
“I gradually became numb, thinking only if I did better, I could justify the sacrifices of others for me. I thought I had become accustomed to the sacrifices and had a heart of stone.”
“But I have never experienced such a mission. Two hundred sixty-seven people set out, but in the end, only I returned. I was wrong. Every comrade has the right to live. No one is born to sacrifice for others. I shouldn’t be numb, let alone calm. They gave me their energy and their lives, and yet I came back alone.”
Tiffany Bell paused slightly in her tone: “I… I’m really fed up.”
“If I had given myself the ability I have now earlier, we could have prepared enough external energy modules for the T100 when we set out, or some of the Intelligent Warfare could have served as space refueling aircraft. Then we would have had a chance to avoid more sacrifices and bring back at least a few dozen more people.”
“I am too self-centered, I have disappointed my talent, and I have let down the cultivation of everyone. My mistakes are unforgivable, so I can’t deserve the rank of General.”
Tiffany Bell’s tone was flat, but her attitude was extremely firm.
Quentin Cooper left in disappointment and even the award ceremony was cancelled because Tiffany Bell was unwilling to cooperate.
After Quentin Cooper left, Johnny Gavin and Oliver tried to persuade her.
But Tiffany Bell jumped off the medical bed and waved her hand, “I’m fine. You guys go do your stuff. I’m going to train.”
“Ah! Big sister…”
Johnny Gavin seemed to want to say more, but Tiffany Bell had already gone far away.
…
Star had stopped talking with Harrison Clark and transferred most of its computing power to assist with the analysis tasks at the Solar System Summit Research Institute.
Victor Young had transmitted a large amount of Crystal Tardigrade-related data captured earlier back through a one-way encrypted channel.
The data came not only from Tiffany Bell’s slashing feedback but also from the violent changes that occurred when the Crystal Tardigrades were swallowed by the space of resetting universe after the annihilation bomb detonated.
The large creatures composed of virtual energy that could survive in the actual energy universe have extremely high reference value and are likely to bring humans a new technological revolution, further narrowing the gap between humans and the true masters behind the scenes.
Human scientists and Star will spare no effort in conducting deep deciphering.
Harrison Clark, on the other hand, was not busy and focused all his attention on Tiffany Bell.
The analysis report in front of Harrison Clark wrote that when Tiffany Bell entered the “Warrior State” previously, her mind was fully immersed in the simulated training; her brain’s Thought Quantum Storm combined deeply with the simulated warrior persona in the T100’s smart brain. At this time, her intuitive reaction was at the boundary of her ability, and her instantaneous response, judgment, and neurally controlled physical condition also peaked.
The synthesis and decomposition process of Adenosine Triphosphate was accelerated to more than ten times the normal speed, and her body was like continuously experiencing numerous small-scale nuclear explosions.
At this time, her logical ability, dynamic intuition, predictive ability, and reaction ability all broke through the limits of the human brain, just like Harrison Clark himself.
It allowed her to control the T100 to complete operations that others could not even imagine.
But there is a fundamental difference between her and Harrison Clark.
Tiffany Bell’s “Warrior State” is not innate; part of it comes from her own hard work, and the other part comes from the simulated personality left by Harrison Clark in the T100. This belongs to forcibly accomplishing what she could not originally do through acquired efforts, just like an ancient young swordsman carrying a backlash and mastering a supreme magic weapon that does not belong to him.
The advantage of this is that it gives Tiffany Bell an extraordinary personal ability that transcends the era and proves that human value can also stand above technology. However, the disadvantage is that her thinking is influenced by the simulated personality; she will gradually lose the diversity of her chaotic thinking, and her judgment will unconsciously rely more on intuition, and her thinking will slowly become quantized and mechanized.
Her mental state suddenly collapsed, sinking into self-blame and refusing to give herself spiritual relief, which was the reason for her firm refusal to be promoted and awarded.
She should have realized that people sacrificed themselves for her not because of her as an individual.
Everyone wants to live if given the choice.
Martyrs are willing to die only because they believe in her abilities and think that her better performance will benefit the entire fleet and the race more.
Sacrifices in war are inevitable, but if we forcibly lock the purpose of the martyrs’ sacrifices on an individual, it is disrespectful to the martyrs themselves.Tiffany Bell surviving and calmly accepting her military rank and commendation would mean that her story and that of the 266 fallen soldiers of the Han realm could continue to inspire others.
In the eyes of the Nameless Fleet members, Tiffany Bell was no longer just an individual. The spirit and will of the 266 fallen soldiers would forever live on in her Major General shoulder patch.
Tiffany Bell was not aware of this.
But Quentin Cooper was too indulgent with her.
Harrison Clark could forcefully intervene and force her to change her mind, but he did not intend to do so.
Some things must be realized on one’s own, and the coercion of others would only backfire.
…
“Major General Tiffany Bell, please wait a moment. We need to perform an urgent check and adjustment on your armor. After all, it has just been restored, and we have added ten times the energy module. We’re very sorry; we didn’t expect you to arrive so quickly. Shouldn’t you be in the fleet’s broadcast channel receiving your award right now?”
The person in charge of logistics technology spoke nervously to Tiffany Bell, who was still wearing her injured uniform.
Tiffany Bell shook her head, “I’m not a Major General. What you just mentioned is all external equipment, right? I only need to use the Whole Brain Connection cockpit. Is that okay?”
“Uh, yes, that is possible.”
“Okay, thank you.”
Tiffany Bell sat back in the T100 cockpit.
Some subtle changes had taken place in the cockpit since seven days ago, and some devices had been upgraded.
Some modules that were previously clearly visible as patched together had become more seamless, and the entire cockpit seemed to have grown into this form on its own.
Countless biological connecting wires twisted slowly along the surface of the specially made metal, like a rainbow.
The neural connection plate also underwent significant changes, no longer being a flat plate, but transforming into a deeply penetrating full-body covering.
Tiffany Bell whispered softly, “Start.”
The next moment, the chair beneath her softened, and then spread upwards, wrapping around from her feet to her cheeks.
She was wrapped like a mummy, and countless molecular-level neural connection lines penetrated through her organic combat suit, connecting with her neurons and the nerve endings in her body.
Tiffany Bell shuddered slightly and then closed her eyes.
Her consciousness merged with Harrison Clark’s simulated personality once again in the T100.
Compared to the last time, there was a slight difference.
She was no longer unconscious, no longer losing her active consciousness, and instead maintained her own rationality and thoughts.
“Greetings, honorable Top Warrior. Welcome. The armor is under adjustment and unable to move temporarily. What would you like to do now?”
In accordance with preset instructions, Harrison Clark’s simulated personality imitated Tom’s voice and spoke to Tiffany Bell.
Tiffany Bell whispered in her heart, “Proceed with simulation training; I want to challenge the ultimate assessment again.”
“You have not fully recovered, and there is a certain risk of injury. Please confirm if you want to start the assessment?”
“Confirmed.”
Harrison Clark watched everything and shook his head slightly.
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This girl was obsessed.
Five minutes later, Harrison Clark’s expression changed instantly.
He discovered something very strange.
As Tiffany Bell re-engaged in the ultimate assessment and began performing various simulated maneuvers, his own thoughts involuntarily generated corresponding reactions.
Tiffany Bell’s combat instinct was resonating through Harrison Clark and the simulated personality, reflecting back onto him!
