Forbidden Heat R18-Chapter 479: Reiner - Share His Burdens

“Is that so?” Reiner asked softly.

“Yes...so...umm...it’s all ok now. I just wanted to tell you everything so that you wouldn’t have to worry if you found out about her visit afterwards,” I said with a small smile.

“What else did she say?” he asked further.

So far, Reiner hadn’t commented on anything, and it was hard for me to judge what he was thinking or feeling and that made me a little uncomfortable. There didn’t seem to be any other option but to continue pressing ahead.

“Nothing much really. I guess my reactions freaked her out and she couldn’t wait to get back home after that...” I said before laughing a little.

Reiner seemed a little surprise that I could laugh about something like this. He probably thought that I would be mad when I found out about what he had been hiding from me. I didn’t like the fact that he hid things from me, but I had made up my mind to be more understanding about it, so I wasn’t really angry. It didn’t sit well with me that Reiner had to suffer so much all alone just to keep me happy in my ignorant little bubble.

"I think that I kind of understand why you didn’t want to tell me about it. You probably didn’t want me to worry about it. I get that but I still would have preferred for you to tell me..." I said honestly.

"There was no need for you to know because there wasn’t anything that you could do about it even if you knew. You would get scared, and you would have worried endlessly about something that you couldn’t control. I thought that it would be better if you didn’t know about it," Reiner explained solemnly.

"When were you planning to tell me about it? You were planning to tell me, right?" I asked.

"I was going to tell you about it after we got married but then you seemed too happy with everything and we were busy. I guess that I’ve been putting if off. It’s unfortunate that you had to hear it from Rachael. I didn’t tell her about it, but she probably heard it through someone else," Reiner said and he did sound regretful.

"It does scare me, and it does make me worry to know that someone wants me dead bad enough to hire the company to handle it. I don’t think I’ve ever done anything to anyone to be the target of such ridicule," I said before I sighed heavily.

Reiner still seemed worried about that topic and the fact that he didn’t volunteer any information about the person who targeted me probably meant that he either didn’t know or it was against protocol for him to tell me. As for me, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to find out or not. What good would it do for me to find out except ease me of my curiosity?

"R...I know this might sound like a very selfish request but...we’re married now so I don’t want us to keep secrets from each other. If it’s possible, from now on, I want you to tell me everything," I pleaded desperately with the hope that he would understand.

"Even if knowing the truth won’t help you and will just hurt you?" Reiner asked as if to make sure that I knew what I was getting myself into.

"Yes. I’m not asking this simply because I’m curious or that I think that I have the right to know. The bigger issue is that I don’t want you to carry the burden alone when I’m completely clueless and carefree. I don’t want you to suffer alone anymore..." I said as I stared into his beautiful blue eyes.

When I thought of how carefree and gleeful, I acted when we went to the beach together on our date, I was consumed with guilt. Unknowingly, I had left Reiner to worry about the whole situation alone while I was the only one who fully enjoyed our date. Not to talk about the fact that I had him do so many things for me too. Never in my life did I want that to ever repeat itself again.

"All that stuff they say about sharing burdens, I don’t really buy. I would rather suffer and think about it all alone than to let you suffer with me if it doesn’t really help..." Reiner said sternly.

"But I don’t want to feel useless all the time and I don’t want you to worry alone..." I continued to plead my case.

Reiner stared deeply into my eyes before he was the first one to look away.

"Fine. I’ll try harder to tell you things from now on..." Reiner finally conceded before he heaved another sigh.

"I was so happy when Rachael told me," I confessed softly.

Reiner’s attention immediately returned to me as his blue eyes focused on my face. I decided to continue with what I was saying now that I had his undivided attention.

"Actually, I was so happy about it that I couldn’t really control myself and ended up hugging Rachael while thanking her non-stop for telling me. That was probably what freaked her out. She escaped shortly after that...haha!" I continued with my confession before laughing when I thought of the look on Rachael’s face.

Things probably didn’t quite go as she had expected when she decided to visit me.

"Why were you so happy about it?" Reiner asked with a confused look on his face.

"Maybe I thought that you were hiding something more terrible from me, so I was relieved that you were simply hiding it because you were worried about me. Of course, I truly appreciate everything that you’ve done for me. You always keep me safe and you take care of me so well..." I said before I started blushing a little.

"I see..." Reiner said and he was probably willing to leave it at that.

"Having someone target my life isn’t great news but it did help you decide to marry me so in a strange and twisted way, I am quite thankful that it happened. Although maybe you would have given in and married me later on anyways..." I said.

--To be continued...