[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 88: Written Fate

Chapter 88: Written Fate

And this reason coincided with Qin An’s thoughts. When Qin An held her hand, the resentment on her head unexpectedly moved and he’s sure that that slight movement made her headaches. But she doesn’t have any reaction on her face, not even a slight wince of pain or anything as if what happened is very ordinary.

That made him think.

Qin An heard that He Yan’s mother was a doctor but had retired at an early age. That sounds very impossible to do in their family who knew the casualty of losing a doctor for the soldiers. There’s totally a reason. Was it because of her mental pollution? Is her index range too high for her to heal patients anymore?

The doctors in this era don’t have any power to cure the pollution. They are still like ordinary humans here and could only continuously research for medicines to save the soldiers. Fortunately, there are medical cabins and inhibitors to help them operate but they are also closer to the exposure of getting influenced. Because other people can go away from stimulated patients, they could not as this is their job. So other than being a soldier, the most dangerous job positions are those in medical fields.

Not Zergs but the patients itself can influence them which is a hard thing. Not to mention that He Yan’s mother is a senior doctor who was awarded countless times for her job, was that the best proof that she had been stimulated by the pollution many times?

But looking at her standing with an amiable smile, she doesn’t look like she’s suffering at all. Just looking like an ordinary mother and a housewife of an outstanding family.

If they are both like this, Qin An suddenly wondered about He Yan’s other family. Didn’t He Yan tell him about all the members of his family who were working in the military? Then what about them?

It was that he also remembered how He Yan talked about this when they were in the clinic when He Yan had a riot. freewēbnoveℓ.com

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"Qin An, I really want to thank you for taking care of me. But don’t worry! Tomorrow I’ll be okay!" He Yan cheered and wanted to smile widely but ended up wincing because of the pain on his head.

Qin An calmly look at the young man who was still energetic even after what happened and couldn’t help but asked,

"Aren’t you hurting? Why are you still smiling?"

That question made He Yan stunned for a bit but he smiled again, revealing his perfectly neat teeth. His canine is showing that even if he’s pale, he still manages to look playful.

"It really hurts but this pain is not even like what my family had to endure everyday," he answered. "My family is working in the military, all of them. When I was younger, even though I am the weakest, my Grandfather would still bring me to their compound. It’s actually a bit dangerous because my physical health is weaker than my mental power. But, my Grandpa wants me to understand how our life is fated."

One word caught Qin An’s attention. "Fate?"

He Yan nodded but frowned a bit. "Yeah, fate. Our ancestors worked in the military and that’s even like this until now. Isn’t that our fate from the moment we’re born? I also want to, but I think that will be impossible."

Qin An was silent a bit. He’s confused again.

"Why do you want to go there when it’s clear that it’ll endanger your life? And, I think what you said is a written fate, not just your actual fate. Because look at you now. The written fate of your family is to be in the military but you are here, right?"

He Yan was stunned but laughed. "You’re right." He chuckles and looks at his pale hands. It was kinda soft, very contrasting to the hands of his family who were full of calluses due to their hard work in the army.

"But even if my fate is here, what I want to do on the stage is to spread happiness for everyone. My Mother said my energy can make her feel better. Wasn’t that also a way to help like in the military? Then that also makes me like my family, following what’s our written fate."

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Qin An was silent and looked at the pair of mother and son. What is the most similar characteristic between them is the gentleness on their bones. It’s like even if the world is very dangerous and dirty, the purity of them will never fade no matter what happens.

He doesn’t understand how could their hearts remain still? He had met countless souls turning into an evil ghost. They have reasons. And that is because of the darkness of the society they lived in. Qin An heard endless stories from them, where all of them have one thing in common.

They fell to their own darkness because of the cruelty they faced. The cruel truth of facing death after being killed and suffering too much from the other’s hand.

He bet that since they are from the military family, they have already seen enough cruelty, right? If not He Yan, then what about his mother? How can she remain smiling at all costs? How could she remain calm and still help the world wherein it only brought an ounce of darkness to worsen the pollution on her head?

Was it just because of the written fate they have? They can clearly rewrite their fate, why are they still choosing it?

He also looks at the families around him and Li Bai on the side. Everyone here is feeling the same, right? They are all silently enduring. No matter if the pollution is high or low, it’s all the same pain.

You clearly know that the mental pollution will only make them suffer but you do nothing. Where’s the oath that you once said?!

Are you letting them die?

The evil ghost’s words sounded in his mind again. His breath unconsciously hitch and his eyes darken.

Is he letting everyone die?

Just by the thought of seeing He Yan and his mother died in so much pain because he did nothing made his heart skip a beat. A cold water seemed to splash on his face and he stood stiffly.

If he doesn’t agree, he’s letting it right?

If that’s the case... was that the life he wanted? Is letting this world engulfed by darkness the right decision?

Qin An doesn’t remember his full memories about his past now but he knew that him choosing to be a human rather than power isn’t just a casual thing.

It’s not just because he’s bored about living the same for too long or anything.

... rather, it’s because being a human would no longer make him feel lonely.

That’s what he’s striving for so he accepted the changes within himself.

To have friends, to feel something... and to live with a purpose.

Is that what being a real human feels like?

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