[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 84: Unqualified

Chapter 84: Unqualified

That thought made him clench his hand and his face turn black.

No spiritual energy means he cannot help. This is clearly because he’s now an ordinary human.

But was this what he wanted in the first place? To become a complete human and cut ties with everything from his past? To experience all the life of a human being, and one of it is to accept their fates?

What is wrong?

Qin An was lost in his thoughts and only came to his senses when he heard his name.

"Class B members... Chen Wei, Liang Jin, Qin An..."

Qin An looked at everyone and saw a smile on the faces from the people that he’s been with. He Yan, Xing Ren, Shen Lou... everyone seems very delighted by the fact that he succeeded in moving forward.

He Yan quickly waved at him happily. His eyes were bright as it overflowed with admiration and pride. The young man put his hands on his mouth and mouthed ’Fighting!’ at him with such an energetic spirit. Even Xing Ren and others are looking at him gently.

Qin An met Shen Lou’s eyes and he subconsciously nodded at him, making the latter also smile at him.

What Qin An actually got from them was just simple responses and acknowledgment. Even their silent compliments were too light for what he received in his past life.

But despite this, just the smile they gave unknowingly makes his heart softer.

His heart suddenly beats loudly and a faint happiness arouses inside him.

Yet, before he could change his expression, a sinister voice abruptly sounded right behind his ears.

"Why are you happy when others are still suffering?"

He was stunned. The black mist gathered behind him until it formed into the familiar face of the evil ghost. Its eyes were dazzling red and looked very horrible as its face was deadly pale with a black veins clearly on its neck.

"How dare you feel happy when you let them suffer?" Its eerie voice continues and the evil ghost lets the black mist hover around the heads of everyone.

What Qin An sees now is like an abrupt change of the atmosphere. The colorful lights from the area seem to disappear as the black mist around becomes heavier.

He felt like the lights slowly peeking into his heart were once enveloping by this darkness again.

The happiness that gradually starts inside him bursts like a bubble, splashing cold water on him.

"Why are you happy when you see them like this? You’re not qualified to be a reaper!"

Qin An’s expression didn’t change but the aura around him turned colder. He didn’t say anything and just let the demon speak its malicious intent.

"You clearly know that the mental pollution will only make them suffer but you do nothing. Where’s the oath that you once said?!"

Qin An’s eyes flash. He already resigned. He’s no longer a reaper and what will happen to everyone is no longer his business.

Isn’t that right?

... And oath, does Qin An ever felt being a reaper is an oath that he swore in his life? Never he did.

For him, back then it was just because it’s his task and the purpose why he existed. He was just doing what he intended to do as a grim reaper, but he never considered it as something he swore to never let go for the rest of his life.

He never swore to stay because he didn’t care in the first place.

So wasn’t it normal that he doesn’t want to come back anymore? frёeweɓηovel.coɱ

He simply didn’t want to, yet why does everyone think it was something he shouldn’t have left?

Qin An is ready to not care about what the demon rambles beside him but the next words he spat totally change everything.

"Are you letting them die?"

The last word made him stiffen completely.

Die?

What is dying? Qin An stood stiffly in the place as his mind recalled what Shen Lou told him way back then. Since he doesn’t have mental power, he didn’t have to conjure anything to their first group performance. Shen Lou had told him everything about their mental power and the pollution that plagued their lives.

And it is indeed what this demon is saying.

Pollution can indeed lead them to a familiar ending for him, death.

How could Qin An forget that riots can not only make them suffer pain but it will also lead them to death?

Through the days that he spent with others, He Yan also talked about the military compound that his family had. Even if He Yan did not enter the military, because of where his family came from, he was able to enter inside even at a young age. He also saw some patients of his mother when he was younger and saw them in pain.

This is what made him become even emphatic towards people because even he himself is also suffering more due to his low physique.

He Yan is pure but he was not ignorant about what is happening because he grew from a family where everyone’s lives are cared for and protected at all cost. Everyone in his family is serving the country and so is he. This is also one of his reasons to enter the entertainment industry. To somehow spread his vigorous vitality for people. To make everyone feel happy while seeing him on stage and it can ease their mood.

Even on that small matter, he can also serve the country just like his family.

Qin An was also once a being that served the world, yet now that he decided to change his life... Why does it still feel so wrong?

"They treat you as their friends, but you’re letting them suffer and die? You’re not worth it, Qin An." The words from the evil ghost seem to be a knife that stabs his heart directly.

Qin An looked at everyone and saw some trainees were already crying. Their faces are full of despair and pain. He can also see the black mist on their heads getting thicker as time passes by.

It’s only a matter of time that the limit will burst.

"You look down on everyone because you didn’t feel their pain, right?" A sneer appears in the ghost’s mouth. "For someone like you who doesn’t even have a heart, why did God give you a chance?"

Every word that he said seemed to be like a heavy burden fell on his back forcefully, making as if his straight shoulder gradually benting by reality.

"You’re not qualified to be a human if you are like this. You don’t even know how to be a human."

And just after the evil ghost uttered those words with hatred and mockery, sounds of exclamations burst inside the arena.

Then, Qin An saw... countless trainees fell on their knees and grasped their heads in pain.

The riot finally came.

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